me vs. the (teenage) world

maybe that's just it. i'm sick of being the world's best friend to everyone, but having literally the only person with the remote possibility of doing the same 2000 miles away. i'm tired of all these layers i have, how i won't do anything about what people think. i let them think i am incapable, that i'm a blonde ditz. i guess they kind of know i'm kind of smart, but i hate that "oh she's so out there" look. i also hate my "friends" acting like i am the stupid one. all of them are really stupid ("oh i could just google it? you went to school? *nods like they wrote the wikipedia for that*). all of this "yep i totally understand though i have no clue what you're saying let's talk about something i understand, like this celebrity* crap is so elementary school. there's this psychology theory about egos. i think part of my problem is that i am too darn lazy to go out there and get some real friends. the rest of my problem is that my ego is at least a level 6, while my "friends" have a level 2 or 3 ego. which means they like to comment on my "blond moments" like i am honest-to-God stupid and/or dense. i mean, my 11-year-old brother has a more developed ego than them (i think he'a between 3 and 4; he shows characteristics from both so imo he'a just leaving e3).


i hate this whole physical geography thing. :P

it's been a while

whoa. i have no idea why i originally made this blog; maybe just for something personal?

but, yeah. i finished my apps to a local community college; priority deadline is april 15 and i wanted my mom to drop it off yesterday.